Trust Me. . .
Sunday, November 30, 2008, 12:23 AM
Saturday is juz another Sad-urdays
Hmm.. Usually i'm quite a quick observer when it comes to people, but when it comes to me, I'm a bit S-L-O-W. Seriously, i juz realise that after my drama rehearsals on Saturdays, I immdeiately went home after that. I mean seriously, I stopped going out with my frens, prior to them being busy dealing with ur stuffs, yeah, and it's like my only off day on Saturdays. The clubbin interest is there but, it's slowly killing me. I mean dealing with the PLU issues and all that, Ugh, sometimes i find people are a bit bias, well, that's life if u called it. It's never been fair.
Pardon my negativity, but usually when i have time for myself, i like to think, for myself, thinkin about the future, thinking about wad's gonna happen to myself and wonder am i going through the right path. Like Hafi told me the other time at work he say something like 'I like working alone, it gives time for yourself to think, what u want for urself in life, and it's like reflection period.' I couldn't agree with the 17 year old optimistic guy. Before i was typing my entry for this post, i rummage through my past blog www.backyardjunkie.blogspot.com, going throught the entries of my past, as i was at it, it tickled me with the entries i had, especially the ones is 2006, before my time to serve the nation. I was telling myself 'wow, is that what i wrote?' Yup, i guess i had quite a few issues back then, was so naive, stupidly fallen in "love" which i don't even know what that means. Not even now.
Like Jason Mraz says: "it takes no time to fall in love but it takes you years to know what love is and it takes some fears to make you trust it takes those tears to make it rust it takes the dust to have it polished"
And during that point of my old blog i realised it's beem flooded with my sappy emo poems, well not professionally written like the O level students or writers like Alfian Saat or Boo Junfeng, but it's juz a localised and easier to understand i suppose. Though my dream is to be a Playwright of course, but the journey is still long and undecided.
With the song 'Disappear' by Beyonce Knowles that's been taking off from her new album 'I Am.. Sasha Fierce.' I felt that I'm hooked to it that i could relate to the lyrics. Somehow actually. Anyways, talk about Beyonce, her 3rd album is not too bad, i was expecting more jumpy and dance, but less dance in this 1 but more ballads, but still, i really like it.
Something happened to me 3 days ago, it was quite disturbing tho, yet surprising, i find. I got a call, from my sister, asking me how am i doing and all that, she was talking to me on the phone and my reply was a bit cold, not that i couldn't care less but was questioning my ego, 'Why?' I can't really elaborate more as it's complicated as it looks already, I'm wiring up myself with work and hoping to get a part time job soon at some 24 hour cafe maybe? like Gloria Jeans? the one in front of Cine? hmm. i wanna check it out soon whether they take night shift ppl. No matter what, i got to tell myself i need to be strong, always tell myself 'it's for the rent.'
As it was past that he was living in torment,
he paused for awhile as if his heart stopped beating at that moment,
He resides in the dark where fear conquers the mind,
Unsure of himself where he had deliberately crossed that line,
Entangled in despair, angsty and hatred,
Can't managed to find his own cup of comfort.
A mask of uncertainty lies on his face,
Yearning for love or dying to be saved?
Something abstract I wrote i guess, like i art i suppose, maybe suggestions or comments from the panel? yes, u readers are my panel, been a while i haven't wrote anythin, pardon my grammar though.. Working tomorrow again, and next week's my show and no1 have yet to tell me whether they're going or not.. hmm.. seems like there's no1 coming though, oh well..
xoxo mrklutz sleeping off..
Wednesday, November 26, 2008, 1:03 AM
It's the time of the month where sparkling lights, huge christmas trees, huge decorations such as donuts, a spinning christmas tress in front of wheelock and candy garlands are being wrapped around the Lampost on the streets of Orchard Road.
Yes, Christmas time is here every1. With the bad recession going on, almost all the shops in Orchard Road are having sales at almost every mall.
It's kinda weird to know, cause u're at the shop, feeling lonely and bored from 11-5 while waiting for ur colleague to come in and u see shoppers are like carrying tons of Club 21 bags, and wad caption is stated on the bag? Well, it says 'Club 21 sales'. The first thing that i got inside my head was, wad the fuck. haha.. Another shopper that walked into shop carried 3 bags of Armani Exchange bags, and believe me it seems that this particular shopper bought a lot of stuff from that fattening bag of his. Where are all these sales being held? Was there a warehouse sale or something around the neighbourhood?
I hav to admit that this year's Christmas Decorations is astounding as ever. Kudos to that, i guess it beats our boring Hari Raya decorations in Geylang Serai, i'm not a racist, don't get me wrong, but seriously, this year, just left me speechless, if u guys noticed, walking along Orchard at about 11pm, u see a whole lot of Photographers with their Tripod stands along the sidewalk taking pictures of the lovely decorations that's being put up.
When i think Christmas, i think birthdays, and dammit, i have like a whole lot of frens which is equivalent to being broke at the same time getting presents for the December babies. damm!! Why do u guys hav to be born this month!?? How much i envy ya!! haha.. Of course, i have danny, draz, my sister, who else i forget?? i know there's quite a few. but dang it.. Make me broke only.. haha..
People listen up! I'm going back to school, but not so soon, i need time to save money. haha.. I'm gonna enrol myself to MDIS in October next year, i wanna take my Diploma in Mass comm.. YUP YUP. u heard me rite, rusty if u're reading this, i know wad u're thinking.. haha.. course fee is 4K. and obviously, it will come out from my OWN pocket money, yes i need to start to hit the books back again. 3 years i haven't been studying, Singapore is like a place so hard to live in now, dun u agree? Advice and support is i need from u guys rite now.. I appreciate it..
Btw, who's gng for my Play? Please let me know.. thanks..
xoxo mr.klutz, signing out..
Saturday, November 22, 2008, 11:08 PM
If there's 1 thing i learn about facebook, it has become a gossip heir.. or better still, a place where people know ur whereabouts and updates. Ah, yes, I'm back after a very long hiatus due to work. Still wondering where I'm working, here's the juice, I'm retailing at Mooks which is under Newurbanmale.com. Happy or not, well, haha.. I'm juz gonna keep it to myself..
Well, updates, hmm.. Met quite a few part timers, Leslie, Hubert, Linus and Kyler, been comfortable werkin with them and interesting people too.. Especially with Kyler and Leslie.. Haha.. Melissa has been gr8 though i thought she might need her "backbones" up, i hope u know wad i mean, Mel.. Benneth, can be pain in the ass sometimes, but he's okay.. Obviously, a huge intervention is gonna be carry out in months to come, but hopefully wadever that comes, it comes for the better.. I gotta hav to keep telling myself to be strong and not be such a wimp.
Other news, I'm making a comeback in theatre!! Yes, after 2 years hiatus due to NS, I'm back on track to acting, yes, I'm involved with Yellow Chair productions, it's called Judgement Day, the shows involves 6 people, who are like inter-connected on how to they AIDS which got themselves in a limbo waiting to be judged. Haha.. I'm still brushing up my character, it's still sucky though, but hopefully it'll be better by then. Won't tell u wad i'll be playing as but u'll know if u come to my show, here are the details:
Date:
Saturday, December 6, 2008
Time:
8:00pm - 10:00pm
Location:
The Room Upstairs, ACTION Theatre
Street:
42 Waterloo Street
Saturday, December 6, 2008
Time:
8:00pm - 10:00pm
Location:
The Room Upstairs, ACTION Theatre
Street:
42 Waterloo Street
Tix are selling at $15
For tickets: Contact SUE at 81005221 OR Get them Online at:http://jd.phunkiefresh.net/
I'm guessing u guys be wondering wad are the pics above, well, it's Billy's birthday and photos are courtesy of Danny Ramlan and Billy Barker, yup it was his 23rd birthday tht was held earlier of this month, and yes, it was 1 hell of a blast.. funny comment from herman:
I'm guessing u guys be wondering wad are the pics above, well, it's Billy's birthday and photos are courtesy of Danny Ramlan and Billy Barker, yup it was his 23rd birthday tht was held earlier of this month, and yes, it was 1 hell of a blast.. funny comment from herman:
Herms: U really look like a photographer in the pics. u also took a lot nice photos
also now. maybe u shud be a photographer.
ME: Erm, thanks for the flattering comment, but I'm sure my close fren, danny
wud differ to ur comment. And too bad, i love photography but i dun hav
camera. haha..
Herms: U can achieve it if u want it..
ME: Hmm.. Maybe 1 day.. But i wanna go back to writting again. Lols.. Dotz..
We had fun but too bad we didn't managed to make the birthday boy drunk to that last bit, instead some1 else, i think got drunk. Ironically.. muahaha... Well, from wad i observed, all of us look fabulous. And i really miss the girls in tht photos. Ok i promise i'll update my blog regularly as possible even how much occupied i am..
gotta go.. xoxo mr.klutz signing out.